STORIES 2005
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Dec 05 - "Over it" - Wellington

I was 17 years old when I first tryed Meth (P). I remember it like it was yesterday. Me and a Girlfriend had been out at a party where we had been givin half an ecstacy each. We had also been smoking Weed and had drunk a fair amount of vodka. Anyway we were with some male friends of ours just driving around and had to drop one of them off at his place. When we got there we realized it was the sober driver we were dropping off, we didn't want to get into a car crash so we stayed there instead. My friend ended up going with the guy we had dropped off next door where he lived and sleeping with him. I stayed in the main house and just hung out with his mum and her boyfriend. We just talked and stuff and had a joint. Then I became a bit worried when some heavey looking guys showed up. I could tell they were gang members straight away. Turns out they were a well known "white" gang. I was really wasted already so decided to try their P. I like it.. It made me tence, in a good way.. Things were fine untill the morning, all night we just talked about P and what it does to you etc. The boyfriend started acting strange, staring at me and throwing things out the windows and doors.. He then began to get very violent and hit my friends mum, my friend also got involved and eventually just ran out the front door. Me and my girlfriend were terrifyed.. He picked up a huge table and thru it at us it whould have broken bones if it had hit us but we ran out the door. He chased us with a gun which he never fired but it was scary. We ran to a neibouring house and I was in so much shock, Fried off my nut i started coughing and hyperventalating. He got taken by the police in the end. That night I ran away from that house. I have seen my girlfriend twice since then, I heard she was a prostitute (at 17) for that couple but did the bolts and is now on the run with a massive gang owed P debt and still a prostitute..

 

June 05 - "S" - Kelston, Auckland

I used to take marijuana all the time. and when i couldnt get any i used to sleep with older men to either get drugs or get money and i hated it but i loved the drugs. I slept with anyone and trust me there was alot. But  now that ive got a boyfriend who loves me alot i have stopped it because i know it would ruin our relationship if i still did it.

 

June 05 - "K" - Huntly

Well i had this friend who was on p.
she never like talking to her old friends and she would never hang out with with us. 
she would alway be with her new friends that do p.
she never went home one night because she was wanted to do more and more p.
that night she died and we never saw her again.
so p will take your friends and it will take your life. 

 

May 05 - "Lost Friend" - Waikato

About 2 years ago now me and a couple of my mates lost the best friend anybody could've asked for to a drunk driver. The only problem was that as well as being drunk he was also high. Knowing that some a***hole whod been drinking and doing P is more than enough to make you seriously think about ever doing drungs. I can honestly tell you all that drugs are shit i have whos so screwed up because of P and now thanx to "HIS" crew so is my cousin. just whatever you do remember drugs aren't an escape from reality they just alter it and really its not worth it.

 

May 05 - "Deja Vu" - Aux

Hey SADIN your group performed at my school today while I was watching the play about a girl on P I was having serious de javu. See I wasnt that girl but that was my dad even worse he was the one on P even his girlfriend. Smoking dope was medicinal to him he has been doing it for so long that he doesn't think about it no more. His new girlfriend hooked him onto P then got him selling it so he can afford his habit. It was quite scary when he was coming down though he'd get real aggro whereas his girlfriend has now got pock scars all over her face from going physco & picking at her pimples. It was scary living at home you never knew when the next domestic would happen or when the police would do a raid. My dad has been arrested once for P twice for dope only got fined though which was lucky for my sister & I, I guess. In the year my dad started doing P I started to rebell I kept up my grades did my chores but only so I could stay with my boyfriend all weekend & get stoned & drunk with him. I had some real wild nights the only downfall was coming home a few times I've come home to see a new hole in the wall my sister crying my dad with the cops & his girlfriend screaming. Once I came home to find that she had tried to kill herself while coming off P. My life was hell at that time but I was strong enough to get through it I could've been like my dad smoking dope all my life getting onto harder drugs but I took a hard look at him I didn't want to be at the mercy of a habit I wanted to do better come further. I'm glad of my experiences with drugs I've seen what it can do & I'm strong enough now to say no. 

May 05 - "About my Dad" - Massey/Henderson

My dad does p i used to think it was ok coz it neva used to change him as extremely as it has now i got kicked out of home and my dad didnt even care he used to care until he started that harmful drug that screwed up my relationship with my dad.
He has no money coz all that he does have he spends on p it hurts me to see him that way but ive asked him to stop and ive asked him to change for the sake of the family and me but he doesnt care his life now is all about smoking as much p as he can, getting as stoned as he can, drinking as much as he can and the spare money he has he uses to gamble. 
Dad is really skinny now and never eats or sleeps my family just celebrated my mums birthday dad wasnt there coz he was too druged up that was his pay day and hes now back to where he started with no home no money no job and now just about no family he relies on him friends to take him n even when they dont want him there but he doesnt know coz hes so screwed in the head im surprised my dad still has friends but they are all the same as him ruined for life and they all depend n each other to buy drugs and get as wasted as he possibly can i thought p was ok and it didnt harm you and i used to agree with my dad "dont diss it till you tried it" but thats not true unless you wanna be a lowlife and go nowhere and have no-one 

 

May 05 - "Better Now" - Aotearoa

I was first introduced to P when I was fifteen. I thaught it was great after the very first time I took it, Ithaught constantly about how I wanted more.

 

February 05 - "Nobody" from North Auckland

One time i cruised into town (Aucks) with a bunch of older mates. They were all doing acid, they were trusted freinds so i decided it was sweet. I dropped the tab at like 7:30 and was still straight at 9 so i was like " This shit aint no thing". By 9:30 i ha collapsed. It was some serious shit. It was mean acid. I woke up feeling like a tran wreck outside A and E were my trusted mates had left me.

 

January 05 - Anonymous
I used P about five times which may not seem like much but it was enough to trigger a mental ilness which landed me in hospital for two weeks. It caused paranoid schizophrenia. I was using other drugs at the time but the nastiest of them all was P. P uses up all the feel good chemicals in your brain so it cannot function normally. I underwent an abrupt personality change that resulted in me quitting three jobs in a row and losing my girlfriend. I sunk into a deep depression and felt unable to be a normal member of society. I couldn't work and couldn't even make an appointment to get on the unemployment benefit. I became delusional, thought that people were against me and they were controlling my mind with their thoughts. I suffered hallucinations and heard voices. Things got steadily worse in terms of my mental and physical health - I couldn't even cook for myself, and thats my job, I'm a chef! - untill eight months later I was in hospital. I've heard that gangs who deal it don't let their members smoke P, and it is the cause of much violent crime. It turns people into psychopaths. I don't use drugs anymore. I have the odd beer or glass of wine but that's it. Drugs are no replacement for real life experience, and are an empty way to alter your state of mind.


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